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I don't know what this post is about yet. I just decided I wanted/needed to post something, so here I go... It's amazing, the empty white space is already receding, yet I still have no inspiration. The last line made me think of hair loss, which is a concern of mine, you would understand if you have met any man on my dad's side of the family. However, hair loss is hardly blog-worthy. Unless, of course, I combined the subject of a certain man in my family and hair loss. Sadly, I believe most of the content that discussion would be based on was told to me in confidence, which I cannot betray. It seems I've gotten to know a lot of people a lot better over the past few months, many with a new light shone upon them, a couple with shadows... And speaking of shadows... Hey, who turned out the lights? I certainly hope I never run across any Vashta Nerada in a dark alley... or a light alley. Which reminds me, I need to have David, Karl, Reggie and Sean over for another Rock Band Saturday soon. I'll grill some Beddar Cheddar brats and we'll rock into the wee hours of the night and talk about many nerdly subjects. I'm sure Portal will come up. I can't believe I still haven't played it. If I weren't broke right now, I'd go buy Orange Box for the 360. Maybe once I catch up on my finances... which at this rate probably won't happen until I get my tax return. Although, I should be getting a significant raise early next month. Today my boss asked me to send him 3 goals for next year. I hate doing that. What I really want to put is

1) be less lazy.
2) be less lazy.
3) be less lazy.

I did put "Be more motivated" for one of them. It's just been so hard to stay motivated lately. I thought as all my friends left it would become easier to take more initiative, but it really hasn't changed much. I guess I spend less time chatting and wondering around, but it doesn't really feel like I'm getting any more done. In fairness, we really haven't had a lot of work to do. It seems we've had lots of emergencies and catastrophies, but day-to-day work has been rather slow. I have a couple things that I probably should have done weeks ago, but in all honesty if I did them now, I'd literally have nothing to do... until the next disaster. I rather like disasters. I guess they make me feel validated for not working hard the rest of the time. Sometimes I want to just pull an Office Space and go get a construction job. There's nothing like the feeling of accomplishment after a day of hard work. I rarely get that feeling. Work life just blurs into home life. Another seat. Another monitor. Another flashing cursor or flickering image.

Basically...


I think I need a girlfriend.