Friday, June 22, 2007

Hero complex?

I was going to open by defining the word mundane. However, I discovered that a synonym, banal, is much more appropriate plus you've probably never heard it and learning new words is always good.

So anyway, back to the point... I wish my title was "Emergency Problem Solver and Advice Guy". I searched on monster.com, but there were no positions like that available. I remember working at Taco Bell (My first job). I was lucky enough that I got to pick my own schedule and I ONLY worked the drivethrough (because I hated everything else). I absolutely loved it when there was a rush. It was my time to shine. I could take the orders, run the register, make drinks and dole out the food better than any two people there. This may be the reason I was "lucky" enough to set my own schedule and only work the drivethrough. It may also be the reason my manager begged me not to leave when I told her I was quitting. Sadly, the extra quarter an hour she offered didn't sway my decision. Back to the point... again. I absolutely HATED every non-rush minute spent there. Clean the trays, sweep the lot, take out the trash... the mundane, banal and trite chores. All things that needed to be done, but I suppose it's the feeling that anyone could be doing it.

I feel the same way today, at the hospital. Once something is routine, it's like I get a superiority complex. It's not really conscious, but I feel like "You could be paying someone minimum wage to do what I'm doing, let me do something that only I can figure out"! I don't want to configure printers. I don't want to reboot a server. I don't want to install that piece of hardware. I want to sit on my butt until a problem arises that NOBODY else can solve, then I want to be the hero. It's entirely possible that many people feel this way. Not everyone, I know, because I see those people that are content doing things a trained monkey could do, but perhaps my feelings are more common than I'd like to think.

Now if you'll excuse me, I must go reboot the Quantitative Sentinal Perinatal Monitoring server because the pc techs can't figure out why a single workstation won't connect... boring, and unsolved.

1 comment:

  1. I know exactly what you mean. I want to be the one that when someones has a problem no one else can solve they come to. I believe the reason for this behaviour is because i want to be remeber as someone above the ordinary, someone you can count on no matter what. Hero complex.

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